Friday, February 29, 2008
I'm very excited to visit my family friend in the City again. After a month or so of not visiting them and tomorrow I will there. Hurrayyy...! I have been missing them especially the little children. I cannot wait to hug the little baby. I'm not so sure if he can still recognize me...
Alright, this is all for now. Have a wonderful weekend to everyone.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
After school, I called my family back home again, and asked them if they found some money for my brother’s hospitalization. Glad to know that they found some money but not the whole amount yet. So I started worrying again and trying to get some solutions of my own. But some insights came into my mind... Man’s own way will never always be successful but God’s way will always be successful. Without HIM I can't do anything.....I am rebuked again..... Headshots!
After I hung up the phone, I greeted my friend online and we chatted for a while and I shared up my situation. Then for few minutes she never replied to my message so I thought she must be busy. (The reason she never replied to my message because she’s sending text message to her mother back to our homeland) Then after few minutes, she replied to my message and she told me that she told her mother about my situation. And she even told me that, her mother was willing to send some financial help for my brother. I was speechless and my heart was melting and I can’t help myself but rather cried. So, my friend asked me how her mother handed the amount to my family. My friend’s mother is living in Cagayan De Oro City but my family is living in the Province and it’s quite far from the city where my friend’s mother lives. Here’s a real situation, none of my siblings have got a bank account. This is an evidence how rich my family is……(smiling here) what’s the opposite of rich…..then….?? Well, my friend’s mother had an idea how she could send the money to my family. Thank God for the life of my family friends and thank God for our “Nanay” mother’s life. Thank God for using HIS people in meeting the needs of my brother-family. (They're too kind to lend their money) Above all, I thank God for HIS amazing provisions. God bless you all more abundantly. Thank God for the healing my brother. Tomorrow, he will be discharged from the hospital. God is so faithful!
If I fully trusted into God’s ways and never worried for nothing, I would have slept well last night. Anyways, God still loves me in spite of the fact that I have worries sometimes. God is so faithful...Exodus 14, this is my reading today....I should not be afraid, I should stand still....I should not be worried....
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Last night, after I posted my blog I received a text from my family back home, informing me that my younger brother was slightly attacked by a high blood pressure. After I’ve read the text, I shouted, “LORD I give up everything unto YOUR hands”. I immediately, phoned my family and glad to know that my younger brother was feeling okay. What a relieve! And I phoned them again today and he’s doing fine but he is still at the hospital.
Being away from the people that I love, I couldn’t avoid thinking and sometimes worrying about their situation also. Even though, I know for sure that God is always taking care and loving them much more than I do. Many times that I was rebuked by God instead of worrying I should put my trust in HIM first and for most.
Many times that I stored many questions into my mind along with those questions were: 1. Am I an effective witness here? 2. Am I doing the things that I supposed to be doing? 3. Why am I working alone? 4. Am I not a good companion? 5. Am I just plain useless here? 6. What am I here for? In other words, I was having this feeling of unworthiness, unproductiveness, uselessness, and in general self-pity. Ha ha ha ha!
All those questions were answered when I started pondering the goodness and the faithfulness of God in my life. Also, God allowed me to feel a little bit sick since yesterday so that I could ponder the things that HE has been doing since HE found me. He has been so faithful in supplying all my needs from the smallest needs and to my very needs. It is HE who brought me here. It is His grace that I’ve been here for 7 years now. This is HIS work and I’m just working with HIM. Be it and let it be LORD!
I’ve been missing my sweet, close, and loving relationship with my Eternal Father. Before, I never get anything without praying, and asking for God’s approval first, may it be buying things, making decisions, doing something, etc. I usually pray first before taking any actions. Recently, I've been so reluctant I always go with the flow which has not been truly good. The reason is, because I don’t want to be called too spiritual. Ha ha ha ha…laughing at myself now!
Today, I came into the realization that I should ask my Father’s permission first before taking any actions. And I should bear this in my heart that, I’ve never been alone because HE is always there for me. And He always been providing people in my life. Then, I should turn the negative into the positive side (Romans 8:28). I should restore my close, sweet, and loving relationship with my Eternal Father. By God’s help I can make it.
Monday, February 25, 2008
When I got up this morning, I still felt the same but I forced myself to go to school because I felt pity with my students. Besides I have to catch up the lessons that I left behind especially for the higher grades. Unfortunately, I only taught during the first period because I felt tired and the numbness in my left hand, leg, chest went through my left face already and my head was aching so terribly. After the first period, I called our principal informing her that I wanted to go home because I was not feeling well. (I phoned because the office is quite far from the Elementary department, and I wasn’t sure if they would allow me to go home). Good that she permitted me to go home. Then I asked her if the school driver could drive me home. Thank God the driver drove me home! The school has a driver that only drives for the school car. This driver always stays at school for emergency. But the school vans drivers never stay at school, they only send and bring back the students to their respective places. They’re only visible at school before the flag ceremony and after the classes.
Before I left at school, I gave some instructions to my grade 6 students, what they’re going to do. I left my book (the teacher’s guide book wherein I wrote all the answers) to their classroom leader, and I asked her to write the answers on the whiteboard and let her classmates copy and write the answers on their workbook. Well, I hope they’re okay. By the way, I only taught them once a week and I have to finish all the topics before second week of March and I still have 2 units left. (We don’t finish the topics on time because we have so much of school activities). The coordinator told me, if I would never finish the lessons on time I have to teach with the students at night. Since February 4, the grade 6 students have been staying at school from Mondays to Fridays due to the lessons that needed to be finished. Then, the administrators have been assigning teachers to be with the students during nights. They’ve been doing like this every year, for grade 6 students only for the betterment of their studies. Well, if I never finish my lessons, I have to teach with them at least a night for two hours. I’m a bit anxious about this though. I hope I could finish my lessons on time, in spite of the fact that I was absent today.
Well, back to my situation after I took some medicine, and rested, I am now feeling better. I hope I will be totally healed by tomorrow so that I can go back to work.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Chinese Pichay(not sure with the spelling) ;-)
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Denia and Ate Jhuda
Great that you've visited me. Never regreted at all.
Ate Jhuda reviewing the projects of my students at the same time relaxing while waiting that the hair treatment cap done treating her hair...
Happy Weekend to everyone!
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Last Saturday, my friend and I went there. I didn't have any plans to buy something. I just wanted to accompany my friend. But while we’re walking we saw nice pairs of shoes, so we went closer to them. I sat on the rail while waiting for my friend to finish looking for some shoes. All of the sudden, a pair of shoes caught my eye, so I went closer and picked them up and tried to fit them. And to my surprise, they really fit on my feet. And the priced of that pair of shoes was so shocking. It’s only 10 baht and….it’s pure and soft leather…! Wow!
Even though, I never thought of buying something since it’s so cheap and still usable. So I never hesitate to buy that pair of shoes even I still have few pair of shoes.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Three days before the Valentines Day, I let my grade 1 students to make Valentine’s cards. And I told them that I would have to choose five nice cards, and I have got surprises for five students who made nicest cards. So the students were so excited about the surprises and each one was so quiet making cards. I didn’t include the higher grades because I know that they’ve great ideas already, besides I’ve done making card contests for my grade 5 students last year. So this Valentines day, I focused with my grade 1 students only. I was truly amazed of what my grade one students have made. Some were so creative and they made beautiful cards more than I expected.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Now, I would like to pass this tagged to Janet, Aisha, Noemi and Marites.
I’m glad that my computer got fixed already. I asked the technicians what was the caused why my computer was crashed again. The technicians explained that some volts were loose and it’s quite dirty inside, too. I thought, there was a virus that contaminated in my computer. Glad that the damaged was not that much. And the service charged was so reasonable. I thought, it was quite expensive but it wasn't. I borrowed some money from my friend because I can't wait until my pay day. To Wait for two weeks are too long for me.... because of blogging...? I think so...hmm blogging is one of those.... :-)
Well, I'll never, never, never stop dreaming, desiring and praying for a brand new laptop. I’ve been praying about this for quite sometime now. I had a laptop before, it was a blessing by friends and I only used it for quite sometime.
I guess enough for computer thing: I am glad that I’m back now and I can do blogging and blog hopping again and many more....
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Blog hopping it’s really nice but it consumes so much of my time. How much more if I join the business world, I might not be able to do other things. But the advantage of it, I’ll get paid out of it, and the disadvantage I might get hook on it.heheheh Anyways, I am still considering, to be engaged in the business world someday. Well, this is my assessment of myself. I know, that I’m not really good in controlling myself, once I indulge to do one thing I never stop until I’ve done what I wanted to be done. I’m really struggling on this area.
The result of my blog hopping today was truly great. So far, I liked it and I posted some of them on my page. If you can see the banner of the left side on my page, I took it from the Christian Women Online.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Today, when I arrived at my house she phoned and reminded me about our dinner. So, I told her that I will be waiting for her at my house and we’ll go for a dinner. Well, she came straight to my house from her office, and she brought yellow roses with matching heart shape brooch.
Around 7 pm , we went to KhupKhon (Thank you) Restaurant and we had our nice dinner there.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
My CREATOR has been so faithful. He has always special presents for me. My best friend is one of the special presents that HE has given to me.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I was fascinated with the projects of the practical arts students. So I asked permission from their subject teacher, that I wanted to take pictures of the projects of his students, and he said yes, so I grabbed my camera and took pictures of them. After I took pictures, I asked the students, if they're going to sell their hand made pots. But they answered in unison, "No teacher, we'll keep them. Well, I really wanted to buy one of those hand made pots but sorry....the students wanted to keep their projects.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Even though, I spoke to them on the phone almost every week but seeing them on the web cam it makes great difference because I could see their smiles and their facial expressions. Spending time with family, it adds joy in my heart.
My niece who just got married (tied up her hair) and on her side is her younger sister,Yenyen.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
I just came to the realization that I spent so much (fares & some other stuff) every weekend. And our new school uniform just arrived and it is bit expensive. Our school uniforms are not covered by the school, we have to pay for them. Almost every year, we have new uniforms and the prices are not that cheap anyways... Well, my salary is not that much just enough for my necessary needs. So I decided not to go to the City every weekend, even though how I miss my family friend especially their sweet children. I might be visiting them once a month or once in every two months. Too long, but I have to discipline and control myself due to the budget.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
But today after I rested, I surfed on the internet about the daily devotional. Unintentionally I left my devotional book in my drawer at school. And I found this wonderful devotional online that really fits me.
1 John 2:1
My little children, these things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.
'I can't win,' the woman lamented. 'I give in and eat something, and then I feel guilty. When I feel guilty, I eat. The more I eat, the guiltier I feel, and the guiltier I feel, the more I eat!' Sometimes we feel like failures when we break our diets. We can be swept up in a sense of guilt that makes it nearly impossible for us to stick to our diet. The solution to guilt is forgiveness, and forgiveness comes to us through our advocate, Jesus Christ the righteous. Jesus knows that we sometimes give in, and He loves us just the same. Accept His love, accept His forgiveness, and let go of any guilt you may feel.
Today's thought: I am not condemned just because I sometimes
Truly, this is how I feel. After I ate a lot I feel guiltier, but still I ate again and for almost a week I’ve been doing it. So after reading this I have decided to go back to my healthy eating habit. And I already asked forgiveness of what I’ve done and my bad feeling about myself.